SOS

Well, the IS is still having problems eating. Now, not only does he spill food all over himself, he coughs and belches constantly while eating. When he swallows liquids, there's a giant gulp. Last night he was sucking on a piece of hard candy so noisily that I almost had to leave the room. I vascillate between feeling trapped and resentful, and feeling sorry for him. I want to reach out and hug him, but his bonyness at this point only makes it harder. I miss the man I married - the one who could make decisions, wanted to do things, felt decent, contributed to the household. I'm so tired of being responsible for everyone and everything. I want someone to take care of ME. I want someone to hug ME. I want someone to tell ME that things will be OK.